this funny feeling...

There are many funny feelings that one may feel, at any given time or day. We say that these feelings are funny because often it's a mixture of feelings, like nervousness, excitement, fear, and more all rolled up in one.

The last time I remember feeling like this is before I go up on stage to play for a good 5 minutes or so. Within these few minutes I have often felt many things in between; sometimes even hear comments but I have to always remind myself to relax and get it over and done with. And after the whole process is over, I feel a huge wave of relief and I end up having this light feeling as if I could fly.

Thing is, right now I am still stuck in feeling the pre-stage jitters; and it's been like that for a few months now. The voices that I hear now say "It's ok" or "You'll be fine" but it's hard to relax under these circumstances. There are a few things that get me edgy, like postgraduate applications and this new phase of my life which I am gonna go through. Everything seems confusing and a bit surreal but I trust that God knows best. It will all work out itself somehow...